Standing in the Sacred Portal of Death
In this episode I open my heart and invite you into one of the most intimate portals of my life. I share about the death of my mother, the intensity of the last month, and what it really means to sit in the room with death. This is a raw, tender transmission recorded after a day of many tears, with silence, emotion and codes for you if you are willing to receive them.
I take you through my mother’s long, gradual decline and the moment of her passing. I speak about how she seemed to be slowly turning into thin air, while her strong personality stayed present almost until the last breath. I share the sacred call to clear my day, sit by her side, hold her hand, call in the angels and witness her soul leaving her body.
I also speak honestly about our complicated relationship. I was harmed by her behaviour for years and I had to do deep work to liberate myself and to liberate her. In her final hours I returned to her bedside, gave back what was never mine to carry and chose what I am willing to continue, heal and honour from her lineage. In that moment we reorganised the heritage between us so we could both be free.
I reflect on the strange contrast between a whole life ending and the world carrying on as usual, the bureaucracy that surrounds death, and the small signs Spirit sent me, including the number 17:17.
More than anything, I share the holiness of a single exhale that is not followed by another inhale, and the realisation that the Divine presence that animated my mother is the same presence that is breathing you now.
Key Takeaways:
Death is a sacred portal
That our culture often hides from us.
You can study death
Yet being in the room with it is a different initiation.
You can energetically return
What is not yours to carry, even at the threshold of death.
A whole life completes in one exhale
and the same Divine breath is alive in you now.
If you are walking with grief, sitting with someone you love at the edge of life, or simply feeling called to deepen your relationship with death and with your own breath, I am holding you in my heart as you listen. Thank you for being here with me in this tender space. If this episode speaks to you, please share it with someone who might need these words today.
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